thoughts

As the days go by fast I have gone through a inner fight with myself. Im very stubborn and I try not to be. But I had to get rid of toxic people in my life. Even ones that dont get high because they were not truly my friend. I know now that just because I dont get high I can still have addict behaviors and now that I know which behaviors i have i am able to talk myself out of what i want to do. addiction is a every day struggle even when your sober. but i love the fact that I dont have to wake up and say hmm where am i gonna cop at today or how am I gonna make money? i hated this part so much. some days were easy but others not so much. I have lost so many people i love to this disease. Many passed away and many still out there using. so be careful because just when you think you got it..YOU DONT..always surround yourself with strong people who have a lot of clean time under their belt. those who are strong enough for the both of you to stay on the right chosen path.