BED101

I had to make a choice and had to be made fast..since my husband has great insurance i am currently being admitted to detox me i can not do it myself i will have my phone and will be checking in once in awhile and im not sure how long but i can sign myself out. im not posting on my wall cuz really i dont want everyone in my life to know this. I never in myl life new anything was worse to detox off until now..im a strong minded person but not eating or sleeping and crying all night long was and is not my choice of fun.i may just be in a week and on the meds to help me make this new journey..I wont say that getting on suboxene or or methadone was a big mistake because for me IT SAVED MY LIFE..if i had know what im feeling now would feel this was i would still make the same choice..excpet how i just stopped cold turkey i regret tapering down 5mg a month.so take that advice if any.. Addiction is so uneducatingly judged and those who want help cant get it and those who dont want it are forced.i just know that MY RECOVERY MAY NOT WORK FOR YOU BECAUSE WE ARE ALL UNIQUE..i wouldnt change anything because it made me who i am today and it blessed me with two beautiful children and more on the way..i want a life where i can feel emotions and know how to deal qwith them instead of self medicating my self to numb me..the problems never go away until you make it happen, until you want it so much that your desire to stay sober is stronger is  then to get high then NO MATTER WHAT...FOR TODAY YOU DO NOT HAVE TO GET HIGH.