Sick and tired of being sick and tired

Being in the human service feild became a passion when i became clean and sober. I can not believe I marisa am 25 weeks away from graduating. This is the first the time I have ever finished.ok knock on wood almost finished since Im not there yet. But I have been blessed to have been given this chance. I just want to say to the active addict out there, your worth it! You dont have to go to school to feel that way but there is hope. Everyone has a calling and once you find yours then you can start taking the stepd towards a better way of life. Everyday is a struggle. Everytime Im faced with fear or anxiety the first choice use to be and sometimes is today is to go use and numb it away. Yes i know the problem will still be there but for that moment i wont have to deal with it. Recently i was faced with a situation that should not have happened and Im grown enough to admit my wrongs and lessons learned. I have always been that honest person, owning up to my mistakes. Because I REFUSE TO BE AS SICK AS MY SECRETS. thats the motto I have followed always. This feild will not always be what i want it to be with clients or co-workers but I can start from this day on to think before I speak and fight for what I know is truth. Treat others as I wish to treated. And always do good in everything. I am not perfect by far and I may have a issue expressing myself face to face. But on paper I have no issues and I think me having dislexia plays a part in that. Today I ok and will still hold my head up high and stand for what i know..