thoughts

Its not easy fighting this disease even when you have been clean for awhile..that monster is still sitting there waiting for the moment it knows your weak to grab hold and return you to darkness. Even having certain people in your life has to stop. I thought some were my friends but once I had to take care of MYSELF and put their needs aside they changed and are no longer in my life. And today thats ok. I am ok with alot of things I never could handle before. I have the great support of my husband and family and thats all i need. I have a few friends who I use to get high with and are clean now in my life still and love them more then anything. And for those people I am grateful for because they remind me everyday that I am  good person and that I am so strong..