Are we ever ok?

ARE WE EVER OK? ARE WE EVER SAFE FROM THIS DISEASE? ARE WE EVER STRONG ENOUGH? I HAVE FOUND MYSELF TO RELAPSE IN THE BEGINNING WHEN I SURROUND MYSELF WITH OTHER ACTIVE ADDICTS. I FIND MYSELF SAYING OH JUST ONE LAST TIME. JUST ONE LAST HIGH. FOR MANY OF MY FRIENDS IT WAS THEIR LAST BREATH AND IT STILL DIDNT STOP ME. OH IT WONT HAPPEN TO ME. BUT IT DID 4 TIMES I OVERDOSED AND GOT RIGHT BACK UP AND GOT HIGH AGAIN. EVERYTIME I GOT HIGH I CRIED OUT FOR HELP TO STOP BUT WHEN I DIDNT HAVE ANYTHING I WENT TO ALL LENGTHS TO GET IT. AS I THINK BACK ABOUT THE PERSON I USE TO BE I CAN NOT BELIEVE THE SANITY. I THINK WE ARE OK BUT AFTER YEARS OF HEALING AND THE DESIRE TO STAY SOBER HAS TO BE STRONGER THEN THE DESIRE TO GET HIGH.