Some one like me..

Talking about addiction is not easy because so many people have no knowledge and they judge because they no nothing. Its not a excuse. its not like i can pick up and put down. i lack what you have to do that. But i have used my experience to get myself educated and give back what was given to me. I will graduate next year with my Bachelors in Human Service concentration addiction counselor/behavioral therapist and will open and own a halfway house to house addicts who wish to change their life and live sober. Sure I still struggle, mostly with emotions because I use to self medicate myself instead of feeling something. I am currently and have been on the methadone program for almost 2 years now because I was at a point where either my relapse after 4 years was going to destroy all I have built. It wasn't my drug of choice which was heroin but the common anti depressant Xanax. You see i cant just take something like ordered. Many people think they know what addiction is, but despite non-experts' willingness to opine on its treatment and whether Britney or Lindsay's rehab was tough enough, the term is still a battleground. Is addiction a disease? A moral weakness? A disorder caused by drug or alcohol use, or a compulsive behavior that can also occur in relation to sex, food and maybe even video games?

As a former cocaine and heroin addict, these questions have long fascinated me. I want to know why, I am different. Once I graduate I will continue to my masters. My life today is of something I can not imagine but that will all be shared later. I choose to go back wards in my testimony since I have written my life story so many time I have never went backwards and I think this will help me to catch what I didnt catch before to help me help others including myself.