I NEVER THOUGHT I WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE SINCE I WAS SO MESSED UP FROM THE MANY KINDS OF ABUSE I EXPERIENCED IN MY LIFE. I HAD A FEW LONG TERM RELATIONSHIP BUT ONE WE WONT GO THERE. SURE ALL RELATIONSHIPS ARE GREAT IN THE BEGINNING THEN BOOM THE ONE YOU COULDNT BREATHE WITHOUT AND YOU WOULD BE WITH HIM FOREVER HAS BEEN WITH SOMEONE ELSE AND EVEN GOT MARRIED BUT NOT TO YOU. IS IT ME? AM I THAT MESSED UP? AM I UGLY? AM I TOO FAT? I MEAN ALL THESE THOUGHTS RAN THROUGH MY MIND AND I STAYED ON THE COURSE OF DESTRUCTION.
I THINK THAT AFTER YEARS OF CRYING OUT TO GOD AND PRAYING HE ANSWERED MY PRAYERS THE DAY MY HUSBAND WALKED INTO MY LIFE. AND NOW I CAN NOT IMAGINE LIFE WITH OUT HIM. HE PROTECTS ME, HE LOVES ME, HE CARES ABOUT ME, HE GUIDES ME AND MOTIVATES ME AND MOST OF ALL HE DOESNT GIVE UP ON ME WHEN I GIVE UP ON MY SELF ITS MY HUSBAND WHO IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. YES WE HAVE FIGHTS AND DISAGREEMENTS BUT THATS NORMAL. MARRIAGE IS NOT EASY THATS FOR SURE BUT ITS WORTH THE STRUGGLE TO HAVE HIM IN MY LIFE.
I FEEL BAD FOR HIM BECAUSE WHEN HE FOUND ME AND MARRIED ME I WAS SO BROKEN WITH NO SOLID FOUNDATION OR EVEN A PLAN WITH MY LIFE THEN I WAS BLESSED WITH HIM. HE STILL GIVES ME BUTTERFLIES AFTER 3 YEARS AND I JUST CANT SEE MY LIFE WITH OUT HIM.
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